Gone for CG yesterday after work. Saw YuZhi at the Bus stop. He said,"Oei! Never see me ah?" Sorry cos I was in a daze so didn't see you. We then took a bus to meet the rest at the coffee shop. Ivan called me and was very angry. Actually I could finally break fast but I don't have appetite to eat. How to eat when there's friendship problem everywhere? I listen to him quietly while he complain a lot of things about someone. I wanted to scold that someone too! WHY HAVE YOU BECOME LIKE THAT?! IF YOU DON'T LIKE IVAN JUST SAY IT OUT!!! I DON'T WISH TO BE THE MIDDLE-PERSON ANYMORE!!! YOU HEAR ME!? I DON'T WANT! WHY IS IT EVERY TIME YOU AND IVAN MUST HAVE PROBLEM?! ARE YOU PICKING ON IVAN DELIBERATELY!? OF ALL THE YEARS I HAVE KNOWN YOU, YOU ARE NOT LIKE THAT! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM NOW!? IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE COME AND TALK TO ME!!! I WANNA HEAR YOUR SIDE OF THE STORY! DON'T SAY THAT I AM BEING UNFAIR THAT I LISTEN TO IVAN ONLY! I WANNA LISTEN TO YOU TOO! I WANNA KNOW WHAT'S WRONG!?
I was very angry and my CGM ask me to go and get something to eat but I have no appetite. I get her workplace number from Esther and call her. I heard her voice at the background. Her colleague is the one who pick up the call. I heard her colleague say,"Oei! Your phone! Go pick it up leh!" and I heard,"Don't want! Who is it?" The sales person then ask me and I said,"Juliet! Ask her to pick up the call NOW!" She don't even want to pick up my call! FINE! Since that's the way you want it, DON'T BLAME ME! It's not that I am siding Ivan but seriously you are really too much! You went too far!!! I really do not know what is wrong with you and why do you keep on picking on Ivan! Do you know Ivan shouted at me because of you?! WHY MUST YOU MAKE EVERYONE UNHAPPY?! Esther Ho, I will surely come for your birthday but in the meantime, I do not know how to make peace between you-know-who and Ivan! I am very sick and tired of her being like that! I know that we have known each other for so many years! But why is she behaving like that?! Can you tell me!? I am not angry with you and I am not blaming you. Just that I don't know what is happening between her and Ivan!? Why must she cause so much trouble!? You know my temper well and you know how I behave in Primary School! You have seen with your own eyes. I have told you what happen to me in my secondary school daze and why I always being called to the principal office! All I want to say is, I don't wish to do what I done in my Primary School + Secondary School daze! I warn you first, I don't wish to lay my hands on her!!! Don't make me do it!!! If not, she will get seriously injured and our friendship will end! This is the 2nd time it has happened like that! Will there be a third time? Ivan says his patience is limited! It's not that he's being petty but when he explains to me something, I feel that he is right. It's not that I am siding him! You ask that person what did she do! I don't wish to say anymore! I am very sick and tired of all these shit! I know you are sick of all these things happening in our friendship too! If she don't like Ivan and she don't like me, JUST SAY IT OUT! I WILL DISAPPEAR FROM YOUR LIFE AFTER YOUR BIRTHDAY FOREVER! I AM SERIOUS! JUST DON'T MAKE ME DO THE THINGS I DON'T WISH TO DO! I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS WRONG! I WANNA HEAR BOTH SIDES OF THE STORY!
After CGM, I called Esther Ho to tell her what had happened. Why is everything seems to went wrong in my life!? Eileen then call me and says she want to talk. It is the very first time I hear her saying in this kind of serious tone. When I finally met her, she broke down in front of me and cry for the very first time! I lend my shoulders for her and she lie her head on my right shoulder and cried very badly. She told me everything. NBCB!!! I then crunch my fist tightly and there's anger in my eyes! Feel like murdering some people!!! Eileen told me to calm down. How can I?! I don't know how to console her but to pat her back and sayang her head.
Met *Joseph and *Elaine for drinks. Eileen and Elaine were shock that I drink that Whiskey raw in half a cup without ice. After that I keep pouring alot of drinks and Eileen tried to stop me from drinking heavily. But...something bad happened after that. Don't wish to say what is it. Don't ask me too.
After that Joseph send me to the bus stop and talk to me on a lot of things. There's a rumour that he has a crush on me but I doubt so. He promise me that he'll take me to his races one day if he got his new car some time. WooHoo!!! Yeh!!! Finally can get to see race track and race cars le!!! WooHoo!!!! So happy!!! But still I dare not introduce him to my friends yet. Cos seriously speaking they will be shock on his appearance. Very Ah Beng, have tattoo on his body, a very heavy smoker and drinker too. Eileen always like to tease me and him together. I then told her joking,"Ok ok if he slims down then I will accept him okay"? But I don't know..He can't be liking me mah! Maybe just treat me as good friend? That's all..he still misses his ex though. She must be very pretty. Eileen told me that whenever she mentions my name to Joseph, he will be very nervous and stammer when he hears my name. I was like,"......your head lah!" Can lah..if Eileen wants me to accept him, can. Ask him to quit smoking and slims down a tinnie winnie bit then I'll accept him :P Hahaha! Very bad right?
I think I have to end here. Sorry for the vulgar words...but I am really angry at some people! Will blog again some other time.
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