fainting spells

Nothing much has been going on these days. While my Mum is away on holiday. My family learnt to be independent. Cos we are so used to depend on her on everything. Especially cooking. But luckily my father knows how to cook a little.

Esther comment some time ago that I seems to be getting fatter. Ahhh! What the...?! Maybe because I have stop taking my fomulas. I am still taking the pills though. I don't know since when I have stop. Recently, I started to feel slightly giddy at work. I do not know why. I have taken breakfast(cos we are force to..my father doesn't want me and my brother to go hungry). But at work, some times I feel like fainting. But..I am not that weak okay!?

One of my cousin then brought her daughter to visit my workplace. My niece was wailing. My cousin then came to chat with me for awhile before she left. Asking how is my family coping and did my Mum called home? I have seen my Mum sending mushy smses with my Father. My Dad showed me and my brother the messages. Very mushy! But I felt that it's very sweet of them to do that since they seldom talk at home. My father is more reserve type of guy while my Mum is more talkative type. My relatives say that I look more like my father(in terms of actions) while my Brother look more like my Mum. Erm..I have to agree with them. Cos when my father was in his younger daze(when my brother and I are still very young), he used to be a very violent person. I think I inherited my father's genes while my brother inherited my Mum's genes. As my Mum is a very nice person. My father and I have two things in common. We don't know how to express well and we are anti-social. But my father is slowly learning to open up to people. He has joined "Tai ji"and made friends there. But still, he is a person who don't know how to express himself(same with me..haha). My brother is more like my Mum. Sociable, friendly, out-going etc. Maybe only my close friends can see this other than my relatives.

I am very excited as Friday is approaching soon! Yeh! Can get to attend W117 cell group meeting for the first time! But I felt sad as I had join in too late and most of them have left. Those people whom I felt close to, like HuiYi and LiYi also left. Haiz..but what to do? The only thing I could do now is to pray. Left with no one in the cell group. Haiz..must grow on my own. But I am very scared that I could not make it and will backslide one day. But until that day comes, I will try on my own and see how things goes. If I feel really very tough, then I can only blame myself for not being spiritually strong.

Today Nor actually want me to go clubbing with her. I was waiting for her call but in the end she did not call me. Haiz..hate people like that! My brother is going away on chalet and don't know when he will be back. So left my Father alone at home. I don't know if he feels lonely? Cos we seldom talk so I do not know what he is thinking? Brother Tony encourage me to try to strike a conversation with my Father. Huh? You want me to talk to my Dad after we had not talk for 10 years?! Very tough lor! What do you want me to talk to him about? Our interest are very different lor! Seriously speaking, if looking at the bright side, my mother's absent is the best time for me to get to talk to my Dad. But I am always so busy with work. I was planning to take him out for lunch this coming Friday before I go somewhere else. But I do not know whether he has any programs on this Friday? I dare not ask him. It's just a simple lunch between me and him but I do not know whether he will appreciate it? Since he is a person who don't know how to express, I do not know whether he will take it normally or appreciate that I had at least spend half-a-day of my time with him? Haiz..duno lah..I better don't think too much on this.

I think I will end here for now. Sorry if my blog is very bo liao(as always). Take good care!