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Nothing much happen at work today. After work, I saw Yvonne at Lobby A and she told me she is following Joanna. But half-way through when she was following Joanna, she lost her. She knows who Joanna is meeting with - her boyfriend. I was very curious and after she left, I ask Nor how come she continues to follow Joanna instead of breaking up with her boyfriend straight? She told me Ryan still owe Yvonne money and she wants to get the money back..plus some other reasons which I could not state here. I was very shock when I heard that. But..it's none of my business anyway. As Nor knows I used to like Ryan before, she said,"Heng ah! You never go stead with him! Or else the girl who kena all these will be you and not Yvonne!"I then stared at her and in my heart, I thank God that I am not so bold enough to ask him to be my friend. I do not know why, I dare to ask Guy's number on behalf of my friends but when I saw a guy that I like, I dare not approach him to ask for his number or to be my friend.

By the way, he is not a christian. But at that time, I was not attending a church cos I backslide from it. I only went to church after my god-brother invited me back last year..but now..haiz. I somehow regretted going back(HuiYi should know why). I told her I felt that it was my fault but she assure me that even before I had join the cell group, it is already that way. So it is not my fault. After that I then went home and receive an email from a christian guy from the United States. I do not remember that I had sign up for his email to be mailed to me. But I read it anyway and after I had read it, it solves half of my problems and I know what I should do next time - Play Pretendence like someone. I think I have no choice but to do that. After reading that email, I told myself something,"Since guys are so complicated and so troublesome, I give up. Thank you Lord but I won't want a boyfriend now or in future anymore after reading that email. I think I prefer to be with myself Hahaha!"

I think I shall end here. Will blog again some time