Kanasai!

I had not been sleeping enough these days and as a result I am tired easily at work today. Almost sleep at work cos my eyes are half-shut.

After work, I then went to look for Nor. She was then very unhappy and said,"Eh! Why you show me black face"? I was thinking in my mind,"Wah! Wanna quarrel with me?!"I then stare at her and said I never and we started arguing. After that we went to Lobby A and I saw Yvonne there. She then said she have comforted her boyfriend and he admitted that he was with Joanna(The Red2 girl). But said that it is not what I was thinking. Okay fine! Whatever! I heck care le! She then said Ryan warn me that if I spout nonsense again he will ask people to beat me up. I then said to her,"Tell him, I am not scared! Come lah! Want to ask people to beat me up? Beat lah! Do I look like I care?!"She was surprise by my reaction. She then followed that Red2 girl to see if she was with her boyfriend. She said she wanted to catch them red-handed this time.

Nor and I then never talk for the rest of the night and I never help her to do closing. Since she don't understand me and I don't understand her, then forget it lah! Quarrel with me because of that $%*^ Ryan?! When I reach home, she keep on calling me and sms me to ask me why I never answer her call? Wah! You think I still want to talk to you after what had happened?! Since we don't understand each other, what's the use of talking?! You can't see my point of view and I can't see yours, then what for?! After today, I just learnt that Nor is very similar with me in alot of ways. She is like a twin version of me. Except one thing difference is that she don't believe in using violence to solve problems while I am more to the violence side. So far only my close friends including my god-brother, saw this side of me before. If you want me to solve things in a peaceful manner, I can tell you it is extremely difficult. This is a strange personality or character or me that is difficult to change. Seriously if anyone could change me to be peace-loving person, I can really salute to that person. Cos so far, I have been like this since childhood and nothing could change that part. Maybe I do not know how to control my anger well bah..haha.

Sorry that I have to end early for today. Need to get alot of rest to work for tomorrow. Sianz..Good night folks! Take good care!