Sunday blue

Work was very bored today as there are not much customers. I don't know how to tell Peter that I wanted to quit to look for a better job. Anyway, I have not started searching for a new job yet so I think I just keep it quiet.

Around the evening, a male customer came in and when I saw what he was wearing around his neck, deep down inside my heart, I felt very heart-broken and sad. Cos he was wearing the EXACT SAME CROSS that I had given to someone on his birthday. I still remembered the promises that the person made to me when he receives the cross. I do not know whether did he say it from the bottom of his heart or he is just saying for fun? But anyway, I guess it doesn't really matter now. He doesn't know the significant of the cross that I have bought for him anyway. Only I know...

I keep on staring at the cross until the customer went off. Ya Cin then ask,"Why are you standing there?"I said,"Nothing"and continue doing my own work. I then think alot of things in my mind of what I am going to do on Friday. Finally get an off day where I could "breathe". But I will be going out alone like I said in my previous blog. Maybe to do a little shopping and then walk around the places where I had not been before. Funny right? Singapore is so small, but if I were to tell you that I have not been to most of the places in Singapore, would you believe me? It's true. When I was schooling, it was always home -> school -> home. Or on Saturdays home -> CCA -> hang out with friends at the same huant every saturday(cos i mix with friends who are in gangs that time) -> home. And on sundays, I get locked at home cos my Mum refuse to let me attend church. She only let me attend after my aunti made me promise that I won't get baptise and only to go for services. That was when I was in Sec.2? She did let me attend church when I was younger, around Primary 5. But after that she stop me from going.

After work, I saw 5 messages unread display on my hp screen. Wah! Most of it was sent by Nor and only 2 was sent by my Father and Brother. Nor wants me to have a drink with her as she was feeling unhappy. But I told her I have to go home early as my brother is hungry for food. She was very unhappy when she heard that. When I tried to explain to her, she "chase" me away fiercely. Haiz..Nor, it's not that I don't want to drink with you. But my Mum is on holiday overseas and now the responsiblity of taking care of my Father and Brother lies on me. How come you cannot understand this? Haiz..so disappointed.

I then went to buy food but it turned almost cold by the time I reach home. My brother then eat the food without complaining. Wah! Never leave a bite for me! Haiz..nevermind. I guess he is too hungry while waiting for his food. Poor him.

I think I will end here for now. Those who are really bored on Friday 17th March, if you want you can follow me around Singapore and shopping okay? :P