Saturday, March 04, 2006

Yeh! Thanks a trillion Holy Spirit! Father!

Haha! I am very happy today! Finally one of my prayers have been answered! Seriously, I never get that amount of salary before! Last month, I pray to God to just give me $100 more for my this month's pay. The money is not for my own. I wanted to give to my Mum. Cos she told me she have to go to China with my Uncles and may need a few hundred dollars. I then prayed to God to provide me just $100 more for my Mum.

When I reach work today, Wendy hand me my pay. When I open and look at the amount, I wanted to jump up and down and shout,"Hallelujah!!! Thank God! Praise the Lord!!! My prayers have been answered!!!"It was exactly the amount I had prayed for!!! But slightly more! I really thank God for answering my prayers. Oh! and another thing I wanted to share. I had work at my current workplace for a year. Thoughout this one year, I had never ever get that amount of money for my pay! Somemore, last month I had arrive late for work for 15 minutes and usually Peter will deduct a certain amount of money if I am late for work. But surprisingly, when I look at my payslip, the time that I was late, he only write 7 hours and the deduction part, HE LEAVE IT BLANK! Cos usually he will deduct my pay if I am late for work like e.g he will write -$0.20 or something like that but last month's payslip the day where I was late for 15 minutes, by right he should have deducted $2 or more for it but he never deduct it! He just leave it blank! Instead of duducting my pay, He gave me $100.20 more! Haha! Tou(1) siao(4)! But still I really wanted to thank God for blessing me the amount of money that I could give to my Mum for. I then pray a silent prayer to the Holy Spirit and God. I keep on smiling all the way. I then told the Holy Spirit,"Okay, since you have bless me in my times of need, I will quit my drinking for you! I promise!"I have wrote in my friendster that I will quit my drinking by the end of the year. Cos I know I have difficulty quitting my drinking habit. But this time, I will quit for "Him"! I will try no matter how hard it is!

I then cried at work silently cos I had neglect the Holy Spirit alot. I did not pray to Him anymore when I felt depress. In fact, I have never "spoken" to Him for the past month except to pray some of my problems to Him. Yet, He still bless me for my need. I felt very guilty but at the same time, touched by His love for me. Haiz..if He was a person, I would have held His hand and look into His eyes to tell him I am deeply sorry for neglecting Him all these time and thank him for his protection and unconditional love for me. Now then I realize He was there for me all along cos I thought that He has left me after I had done so much things to grieve Him. I thought I had lost Him.

I know..maybe to some of you, I am crazy. Ya, I am. But at times, I could really sense Him and His love. He is as real as a person to me. But after certain incidents, I could no longer sense Him and I thought that He has left me. I do not know that He is still waiting for me to seek for Him. I am sorry but I will devoted my life to Him from now on. Sorry Nor, forgive me for that. To my friends, thanks for your concern and care that you tag at my tagboard. I will still go to those places BUT only ONCE A YEAR. This time, I won't be going every week. Although I had lost almost everything now, but I am very happy to learnt that I had not lose Him. He'll be the reason for my changes(good changes I mean)from now on.

I will end here for now. Will blog again next time. Hee..He's back in my life! Amen! ;P

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