After that went for service after went to fellowship with the cell group members. HuiYi suddenly tell me there is NO BIBLE STUDY!? Whoa!!! Wanna cry already lah! NO BIBLE STUDY?! I really look forward to her Bible study very much! After that HuiYi and I stood aside to discuss something private. I was very shock by the things she told me. Extremely shock! But I can understand. I then pour out my problems to her about someone. She said that maybe is that I think too much le and ask me to sit down with the person to have a heart-to-heart talk. At that time, I was thinking,"How can we have a heart-to-heart talk when he ignores me?!"She then ask me to try to talk to him and see how he respond. If he still ignores me then he isn't worth my friendship. I then said I will try. But I do not know how to talk to him.
After service, I then left together with HuiYi and the group. We then went to Bugis to initially look for someone but he did not come and the rest of the group, including me, left unhappily. I then went to Clarke Quay to meet up with my friends. When I was on the way, Nor ask me to call her and claim that it was urgent. I then tried to return her calls in vain. I then curse and swear cos I hate this kinda thing happens! Guys, if you all expect me to return you call and especially it is urgent, PLEASE DON'T SWITCH OFF YOUR HANDPHONE OR WORST, DON'T PICK UP THE CALL! I WILL GET VERY ANNOYED! I then receive a call from private number, which I guess it's from a payphone. I pick up, Nor and Yvonne(A girl work at More Than Words)shout at me. They ask me about the incident which I claim that I saw her boyfriend holding another girl's waist(The girl work at Red2 at the same workplace). I REALLY SAW LOR! WAH YOU THINK I SO BO LIAO GO AND CREATE SOME STUPID STORIES FOR YOU TO QUARREL WITH YOU STUPID BOYFRIEND?! KNS! I AM NOT SO FREE LOR! AND I AM NOT SO BO LIAO TILL LIKE THAT LOR! BELIEVE IT OR NOT IT'S UP TO YOU! I SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES! I regretted I never took a picture of them with my camera phone! Or else I could use it as edvidence that I am NOT CREATING STORIES! I thought they had broken off so that is why the hang ten guy behaving so intimately with the Red2 girl! So I didn't take pictures. But the other day when she drop by my working place and show Wendy the pictures of her and Ryan(The hang Ten guy)she address his as "My boyfriend" I was thinking,"Boyfriend? so that means u guys have not break up? And he is there holding another girl's waist? Funny leh"I then sms her to tell her what I saw but she ask me not to be so busybody as it's her own business. Okay fine! Nevermind. I have no right to interfere anyway. She ask me to go down IMMEDIATELY to settle the problem! *******(short-form valgular words)! NOR! I TOLD YOU BEFORE SATURDAYS DON'T CALL ME RIGHT? I AM BUSY! WHICH PART OF THIS SENTENCE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND?! I then told them I could not come down and we have a heated quarrel over the phone as they insist me to go down immediately. Nor then said,"Eh! Why u talk like gangster like that?"I replied,"I NOT HAPPY LAH! WHY?! GOT PROBLEM!? *******(Valgular words)! I TOLD YOU BEFORE NOT TO CALL ME OUT ON SATURDAYS ALREADY RIGHT!?"She then said,"K lah! We settle this tomorrow night lah! If you are telling the truth of what you see, and your conscious is clear, you don't need to scared what!"I then told her,"I AM NOT SCARED! I JUST DON'T HAVE TO SOLID PROOF TO SAY THAT HE IS TWO-TIMING YVONNE! I REALLY SAW IT WITH MY OWN EYES! BUT SINCE I DON'T HAVE SOLID PROOF, HE CAN DENY AND SAY THAT I AM TELLING LIES! YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN OR NOT?!"We then end the phone saying that we will settle it tomorrow night. I then went to look for my friends.
On the way there, my god-brother shout for me. I then went to them and told them not to talk to me first. Let me cool down. But my god-brother pull me aside to ask me what happen and ask me to share with him. At that time, I was so angry that I will punch anyone who annoys me! But I try very hard to keep my cool cos anyway, IT IS NOT MY GOD-BROTHER'S FAULT! IT IS NOT MY FRIENDS FAULT! I do not want to cause them any unhappiness with my own problem. He then talk to me and I told him what happen at work. I don't think he get the whole picture but at least he agar-agar know what is going on and ask me to relax. We then went to Macdonald's.
I then quarrelled with Jia Xing there cos of something she said. Or maybe the tone that she use that I am not happy. My god-brother then try to pull me out to talk to me but I reject him. I then take my bag and leave the place angrily and said,"I am going off! I don't feel well!"and walk out of Macdonald's. I do not know that my god-brother was following me until he pull my arm and said,"Come come, let's talk there!"I then stare at him angrily. We then went to a nearby river and stood there. I then cried..infront of him..haiz..so malu..but too bad. I couldn't control my tears. He ask me what happened to me and talk to me on alot of things. I finally pour out what I have been burying inside my heart for so long. I told him what I notice about him and that I feel ignored by him and I even told him that ever since he has Jia Xing, he totally ignored me!(At least that is what I felt)I couldn't help but cried and told him how hurt I felt when he started to treat me differently and that he never told me his problems anymore like he used to. I don't mind if he didn't tell me but I really do mind that he has been ignoring me! I then told him a fact that surprise him,"Do you know? Actually yesterday when we went to Kbox? I told the girls that it will be my last day with them!"He ask why? I then told him my inital plan - to let him mix with my friends and I will leave my friends. He will replace me in the group and I will leave cos I remembered he used to said to me before that he like to hang out with my group of friends! He then seems very hurt by what I have said and told me something that surprise me. His answer really surprise me and I keep quiet. I then took some time to cool down before apologising to him and he comfort me. I felt better after talking to him and finally cleared the questions that I have inside my heart. We then went back to Macdonald's and I apologise to JiaXing for shouting at her just now. We took shake hands and everything seems fine after that.
After that we send Gary to the bus stop and we went to East Coast Park to chat for a long time to wait for the sun rise. When the sun rise came, it was very beautiful and we took pictures of it. My camera phone could not capture the exact image. We then went to Macdonald's before taking bus home. On the way, my god-brother was tired and he fell asleep. The way he sleep was very cute - at least to me. I look at him for quite a long time and looks away when he wakes up. After that we alight and bid each other goodbye before heading home.
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